Sunday, April 22, 2012

making time


Over the past few years I have allowed life and work to get in the way of what I love. It has kept me from truly taking time to pursue my passion.

Now I am taking time to find my way back to my passion.

For as long as I can remember I have loved to write. When I tell people I love to write they look at my like I am crazy. (Which I find funny.) For as long as I can remember I have had a passion for writing. In high school, I filled journals and took as many writing classes as I could. In college, I continued to write and take a class here and there if it allowed. In my early years as a teacher, I continued to write for pleasure. I loved writing short stories and poems. I loved finding rhythm in words and phrases. I loved putting down a moment that was on my heart on paper. I simply loved to write.

I am not sure when my passion died away. I think pursuing a masters degree while teaching full time had something to do with it. Becoming a mother had something to do with it. Giving my all to my family and my students probably had something to do with it. None of these phases of my life are bad. I have no regrets about any of them but while I was/am going through these phases I put my passion on the back burner. Slowly, over time, the passion burned out.

This past week I read this blog for the first time, read all of Hayley's Pursuing Passion posts, and had a passionate conversation with my building coach. All these things started to the light the fire for my passion once more. All these things reminded me to be good to myself and allow myself to pursue my passion once more. I was reminded to seek my passion and look for the beauty in my life.

So here I sit at my desk in the early hours of Sunday morning. Here I am once more pursuing my passion.

I have realized that if I don't make a set time to pursue my passion it won't go anywhere. This weekend I am trying something new. I have started afternoon rest time and getting up early to write and edit photos. Ideally this will give me three hours twice a week to really pursue my passion. I am excited. I am ready. I want and need my passionate fire to burn again.

I need to take this time for me. I need to pursue this passion. When I write I am calmer. When I write find joy. When I write I find that inner happiness that has been gone. When I write I am me.

So here I sit making time to pursue my passion once more.

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